Ok so it has been a while since i wrote. Now Little man and me have our own place and loving it. He has been doing well sleeping in his room and helping around the house. He loves to help sweep and mop, he will most of the time put his plate away in the kitchen. He loves having his own space and me not yelling at him every few mins cause he doesn't understand the rules.
As for me I love having my own place is really nice. I have thing in places where i can find them, and i am not super stress all the time. Big part of it is i am not feeding off others energy. Minus the last few days of me being sick I have done a good job keeping my house picked up. Cause once again I don't have someone stealing my energy and motivation. for such a small apt it feel so big to me. I guess it would going from living in a one bedroom house last year to bedrooms with little man, me and our stuff all in there. I have noticed i don't watch much tv. anymore Tuesday nights is about it, I need to get my NCIS fix. Once little man goes to bed I turn on Pandora radio do homework or play dumb games while having a cup of tea before i go to bed.
I know we still have a long road head, but i feel good for the first time in a long time we are heading the right way. The way we ended up in our place was a blessing waiting to be made known. I have been making new friends and found a renewed love for VWs in the process. making me wanting to learn about them. I am learning it is ok to be by my self for as much as it sucks doing stuff on my own and enjoying me, something I have not done in a long time. I am loving my back ground of being German and Irish. I have gone out with help from a friend got my tattoo I have been wanting for so long and enjoy showing it off and can't wait to get other someday. I feel free to be who i am and who i was ment to be. I not changing for anyone, I stand by it if you can't love me for my crazy, sometime annoying self and my crazy son then you don't need to be in our lives. we have come a long way in a short time, with a ton of room to grow, explore, and enjoy life. <3